re: Sometimes life sucks

Thank you LRB. The prayers will definitely work.

I have the strength to make it through this difficult time. I will say I am not at all a believer in karma but I do think you reap what you sow.

I lived a lot of my young adulthood as a sinner, not a bad person but not a good person either. I wasn’t evil but I hurt a lot of people emotionally.

What’s crazy is I have been crazy in love with my wife since we started talking. The one person I never wanted to hurt, had patience, suffered my own emotional abuse from her, and now I’m all washed up and we are officially in divorce proceedings. I will be moving out of the house in the next few weeks. I don’t want to frick up my step son’s heads overturning their lives. Remember one of them has an IQ of 52 and doesn’t understand “adult” type stuff he’s kind of trapped with a 10 year olds mind. Luckily so far everything has been very amicable. Starting over at 54 doesn’t seem fun. She’s 43 so she has some time to recover. Not saying I don’t but maybe a townhouse is in my future and not the “forever” home I was looking to build in the not so distant future. I’m not really materialistic other than when I do purchase stuff I like high quality things. I’m not emotionally attached to objects so that helps with losing things like shared things from the house. I couldn’t care less who gets a painting or pot or pan.

Again everyone thanks for hearing me out. I know we are semi anonymous on here and it helps to express what I’m going through without judgement or someone that’s “knows” me. I can just ramble.

Last thing anyone know any rich women?? lol

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Last thing anyone know any rich women?? lol

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She probably didn't cheat on you but this is why men dont buy women fake tits.

Or take them to nude beaches. You never let them compare sizes at a meat factory.

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Which in turn, has caused me to work all the time to provide for our family

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I think a lot of us have been in that spot with little ones. Especially if you aren’t settled completely into your career. I had my first when I was 22. I was making $7.69/hr, for a gift from my work they bumped me to 10.57/hr. So I worked 2-3 jobs.

Only sport I absolutely have sucked at is golf. All others I just used my athleticism and was successful. Golf is a different beast.

I like fishing. Don’t do it enough. I like shooting guns. Don’t do that enough either. I don’t drink so hanging out having drinks aren’t my thing. And last time I went out I was the oldest critter in the bar and was like nope not for me.

It is never too late. I am getting married for the first time and am 59. My significant other is a year older and will also be getting married for the first time. Ironically I am not sure that we would have appreciated each other if we had met when we were younger. Life offers a lot of opportunities, not just one. The relationships that start later in life have a unique set of challenges but offer a lot of genuine fulfillment.
There is someone special out there who can appreciate and value what you have to offer. I will pray that God will bring her to you when you are ready to begin again.

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I am getting married for the first time and am 59.

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Another person on this board that is older than me.







This is turning out to be a great day

No wonder i feel like I've aged so much the last few years

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'll chime in and hope to give you comfort that you're not alone. Not the same situation as you and I'm a few years behind you (coming up mid 40s) but where I'm struggling right now is being stuck yearning for a situation that doesn't exist. I love the ages my kids are at right now and everything with them is a blast but my oldest will be in high school next year and I can feel that time with all of us together slipping away. Because of that I hate going to work everyday, even though it's simple work and affords me a great deal of time off, because it keeps me from doing what I want to be doing which is enjoying our time together. So I keep longing to be able to retire even though it's like 15 years away and when that time comes nothing will be like it is now and presumably (and I guess hopefully lol) my kids will be off doing their own thing and I'll be longing for these days.

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Wow - this just hit home very real and hard. I turn 42 tomorrow with 12 and 8 year old boys. On paper I’m in a good place, but Im at a point where I feel like I’m having to choose between my job or my family. I’ll choose my family every time, but the effect on the job will ultimately impact my family. I’m terrified on the speed of life now - months go by in the blink of an eye, and the stress to make it happy for everyone has taken a huge toll on me to where I can’t enjoy it. The great big ironic catcher-22 of life

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At every step you take, your Heavenly Father is there and nothing ever happens that is not filtered through His fingers of love.

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Thanks for posting this.

Still praying for ya, bub

As someone who is looking hard at 80, at a certain point there is a transition where we mostly look back because in fact there's less and less to look forward to. I was lucky to have met my Asian wife when I was 58. Our 20th anniversary is next month so we are going down to Curacao for a week. Just want to do some things we enjoy together while I still can.