Sometimes life sucks

Not to diminish your pain, but you must have made alot of memories with that big of a family. Its looking a real possibility that Ill get to enter my 40 by myself other than my mother's support (which Im grateful for). Burying no one is never easy but being on the opposite side of the spectrum hasn't been what I'd hope.

I may not be family but I for one enjoy reading your words, even if its just a random stranger on a message board. Gonna be praying for you baw

“Honor you father and mother”

It’s the first commandment with a promise.

You seem like a genuinely good man.

You are probably here as an example for the others in you circle of how to care about family.

God loves you and everyone of us- even when we get ornery about orbit motions or flex cuts.

Thank you friends. Inspired to say the least. Some are martial issues. So no support system there. This is my biggest problems for now. Blessed that it hasn’t hurt my relationships with my step-sons. The youngest of the 2 is really the one that threw my head for a loop. On Thanksgiving were discussing his mother and I’s relationship. He looks me dead arse in the face and says “If it were me, CJ, I would have been gone a long time ago”. Devastating!!

I do have that grand baby but she lives in Tampa. Tough trip on a whim but I do it as regular as I can.

Take it one day at a time. I am the youngest of 4, wife is the youngest of 3.
I have only 1 sibling left. My mom family of 12 all gone along with most of their kids, my dad family of 13 all gone along with most of their kids. I don't remember grandparents on my mom's side. Barely remember my dad's side.

Grew up basically as an only child due to the age gap between me and the next one. I miss my dad tremendously.

Now my wife is going through it.

All we can do is think of them and take it one day at a time. Speak to God and walk the path. Good luck in taking it all in and working through it.

Corch, good luck big dog

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I’m lost in emotion.

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That's a damn good term and description. Don't think I've ever heard it before but it is a great description of what I think a lot of us go through.

I've been in a funk since our two year old had emergency surgery last month. I'm not depressed, I'm just sad.

She came through fine and was only at the hospital 24 hours or so, but she had been given a great report from her neurosurgeon a month prior and I think I'm just stuck in that mode of looking at every little thing looking for a sign something is going wrong again.

My mom passed almost 2 years ago. My dad over 30. All three of his siblings are gone, three of her four are gone. We finally got the nerve to clean out and rearrange her bedroom over the summer, and a couple of weeks ago I took a big pile of her shirts (travel, concerts, etc.) that we are keeping and sorted them and put them in totes for storage. I just sat there among these shirts and I'm asking why she couldn't take better care of herself (a UTI went septic, opening the door for pneumonia and afib, which just led to a 5 month long decline).

I look at life and I have a great wife and 2 amazing kids, but I'm 50, doing the stay at home dad thing because DOGE took away the contract I was on, and so many places now want in person or hybrid workers and we aren't ready for our daughter to be trusted to daycare. But I function better as the provider and not the caretaker.

I'm just trusting God and making it day by day, and I hope you can too. I'm sorry if I hijacked your thread.

When you’re going through hell, just keep going.

I'll chime in and hope to give you comfort that you're not alone. Not the same situation as you and I'm a few years behind you (coming up mid 40s) but where I'm struggling right now is being stuck yearning for a situation that doesn't exist.

I love the ages my kids are at right now and everything with them is a blast but my oldest will be in high school next year and I can feel that time with all of us together slipping away. Because of that I hate going to work everyday, even though it's simple work and affords me a great deal of time off, because it keeps me from doing what I want to be doing which is enjoying our time together. So I keep longing to be able to retire even though it's like 15 years away and when that time comes nothing will be like it is now and presumably (and I guess hopefully lol) my kids will be off doing their own thing and I'll be longing for these days.

Point being I think every phase of adult life is challenging even if things are seemingly smooth at the moment. Throw in a death, marital troubles, financial issues and it can spiral fast. I try to lean on the Lord as well but sometimes that can cause a whole other set of issues when that relationship isn't clicking or you're wondering where he's at.

Like your thread title says, sometimes life sucks but much more often it's a beautiful thing. Keep your head up brother, it sounds like you're doing all the right things and you'll come out the other side.

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That time with your kids is quite fleeting

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That is the truth. I was gone for a few years (months at a time) when my kids were growing up. Being deployed in the Navy well before there was internet to the ships.

I was also gone for a year doing other things on land after 9/11 & again for 18 months doing other things on land for the military a few years later plus a month here and there while the kids were growing up. I missed that time. Looking back interesting career but you can't get that time back.