re: my ex left me again and its tearing me apart (Please give me some advice/insight)

This is not a tall tale. yes I may troll LSu sports but this isn't about a game.

This is about my real life. Real problems.

Most people thought that I was lying last year when this stuff happened.

Again it is a real life situation. And as crazy as this may seem to believe it is what I'm dealing with. And I hate every moment of it because Ive never been this low in my life ESPECIALLY over a damn woman. I guess after all the women i dated this was the one I took a chance with and really thought she was the one. I didn't want to give up on her and I read all the the self help tutorials online to fight for my relationship. She gave me false hope after we reconciled back in late November. I thought she was truly ready to make things right and we qere suppose to finally get on with our lives and live happily ever after. But when we got back together she wasn't over our first go around. She thought she was. But when ever we started to argue it always reverted back to our past.

I had the red flags early this go round when I busted her talking and working for her ex. That was in the beginning of this second go round. She said she only lied to me to protect herself as she wasn't sure if we would get back together and he was her means of work and pay. She did work for him but I also thought it was more she was doing with him . No way a man gives you his banking info and jets to his house without being intimate or wanting aomething more. But she did distance herself from him. She quit working for him and made sure to delete and block him from everything. She even told him via phone to go away. I thought then she was serious about our relationship