Sometimes life sucks

Yall know I requested prayers a month or so ago. Continue to pray for me please. I am going through some major things in life. I’m healthy so no concerns there.

I will expound a little without going into much detail. On my mother’s side of the family my mom was 1 of 14 kids. On my dad’s side my dad was 1 of 7 kids. I myself am 1 of 7 with an adopted sister added in to make us 8.

On my mother’s side I’m next to the youngest of all grandchildren. The youngest is 2 months younger. On my dad’s side I’m 3rd from the youngest.

I’ve seen to much death. I’ve buried so many people. Obviously at 54 I’ve buried all my grandparents, of biological and married aunts and uncles I’ve buried 38 of 41. 3 are still living. I don’t even know the number of cousins I’ve seen pass. I’ve lost 3 siblings. Had a memorial for one of my sisters last Friday evening.

It’s not just that, it’s the totality of life. These are just some situations probably everyone can relate to. I’ve aged like 10 years the past 3 years it feels like. My kids are basically all grown. My youngest is 20. Maybe this is my midlife crisis. Heck if I know.

I’m truly blessed with my life and where I come from. I am as close to God as I ever have been and that’s been going on 13 years now. But something is off, something is missing. I’ve yet to figure that out. Maybe some young bucks or old heads have some advice for me.