Dave Worth

Turned 50 a couple months ago. Most of my adult life I’ve been non emotional. I thought it was interesting that in real life I rarely cried, even at most funerals, but will cry/tear up easily during movies and tv shows.

Three years ago we lost a family pet that wrecked me. Lost pets before but this was different. Then my dad passed away suddenly exactly a week later. That was the start of my emotions changing. More empathetic to those around me. Also way more angry in general.

Then a few months later my wife got breast cancer. Dealt with that well and she beat it. Then a few months ago she develiped a very rare cancer caused by her chemo. And her version is a very rare type of that very rare cancer with a gene arrangement that occurs in less than 1% of the rare versions of the rare cancer. She has a 50/50 shot of being alive in two years. She’s currently 49 years old and the cancer makes it difficult for her to walk and gives her bone pain most nights (and some days on the worst times). So she needs help just taking a shower or making dinner many days along with a dozen smaller tasks we all take for granted. Just started chemo again this week while we wait for a bone marrow transplant.

My mom has the same rare cancer, but a milder version that she’s lived with for 8 years. Hasn’t progressed to the bad stage yet but it’s coming at some point.

I’m pretty emotional all the time now. I get angry (seeing red angry) at almost anything. I have to focus on letting things go because I know I’m just looking for an excuse to let the anger out any way I can. When I’m alone (car, before bed, anything) my thoughts always go dark. I play out every scenario of the rest of my life dozens of time each day and usually focus on the bad ones. Can’t help it. The best way to ignore it is by playing video games because it keeps my hands and mind active and focused on something else. Second best is just watching tv with her because it feels normal, but also reminds me of what I may miss.

It’s not all dark. I laugh at work, enjoy tv, movies and video games. Love spending time with my wife. But it’s rare I go a full day without some sort of crying or tearing up when I used to go months or years and that’s the mood of that day. I even teared up writing this, probably because it’s the first time I’ve written it out. I still have hope she’ll beat this and we get another 10, 20 or even more years together.

TLDR: to the OP, yeah…I am more emotional at this age, too. :violin:

I started paying a few months ago. Well worth it. I use it even more now that I don’t have to worry about ads anymore. And I click on so many new topics knowing I don’t have to sit through a 30 second ad just to see if it’s worth a shot.

Fun fact: you don’t need a parachute to go skydiving. You do need a parachute to go skydiving twice.

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I would much prefer a higher concentration and the ability to just take a shot of it. Only way I could see myself trying it again

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You can buy edibles from a company (I use Enjoy Hemp…website should be easy to find) and ship them to you. I get 12mg gummies (25 to a bottle) for about $40. There’s your concentrated shot. Take as many as you need.

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Mad Men


Oh good I’m not alone.

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A few weeks ago I saw the complete series on sale for $35 on Apple. Always wanted to watch it and the only place is through AMC streaming or buying it.

I'm 4 episodes in and don't get the appeal so far. I'm hoping it gets better as you get to know the characters. At this point it seems almost like an SNL skit about how men acted in this time period, but amplified.

I'm not asking if I should keep going...I wouldn't bail on an such an acclaimed show after just a couple of episodes. But I am wondering if it does get better. Advertising might be like medical dramas to me...I just don't care too much about the genre.

I asked ChatGPT why does Jack Reacher walk funny with short strides? I'm very new to ChatGPT and having fun asking it stupid questions to learn how it works.

It gave 5 possible reasons covering info from books, movies and the show:
-Military training I talked about
-It's due to his size
-Actor decision to make him more imposing and deliberate
-Just to be opposite of Tom Cruise's portrayal which was more fluid
-Psychological aspect: reflects his readiness to stop, turn, or react at any moment.


I'm going with a combo of military training and to make him look bigger, stronger and more ready to go at all times. Even if it looks funny. Some Reddit people think it's because the actor is only 6-2 and is wearing lifts to seem taller and that has an impact :dunno:

Love the books (read them all except maybe the latest one), the first movie (second was okay), and all 3 season so far (Season 2 was good, not great, to me).

I tried watching this a few months ago. I would watch it at night after my wife fell asleep and the edibles had kicked in. That was a bad idea because I would either fall asleep or not really remember what happened. I tried to start up where I left off a couple weeks ago (Episode 4) and had no memory of what happened.

I got a little sick this week so I started Monday night with Episode 1 and finished Episode 10 last night. Fantastic show. I would get confused a lot trying to remember which character did what, and sometimes why, so I would often pause and have to look up stuff. Would have been way easier tracking this thread after each episode! Reading through it today either showed me stuff I missed or reinforced things I thought.

One thing that surprised me about this thread is how little discussion of the prisoner being boiled alive there was. I can watch a lot of sick stuff and not be really bothered. I don't know if it's because I was sick for that episode, but his screams being dragged to the pot haunted me all week. Something about knowing you're about to die in one of the most horrible possible ways resonated with me.

Also saw there's a Season 2. Hoping for the best, expecting the worst. I did watch some of the behind the scenes stuff and saw that the actor playing Toranaga is a main producer and one of the most respected actors from Japan. I think he's also an expert on that era down to clothes, customs and even the way they walked/moved. They showed how he would film his scene, then take off his wig and costume and go straight to advising on another scene. His (and the other experts the show used) continual involvement will be a huge positive. I will start watching Season 2 the day the first episode is released.

Good theory!

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Oh yes, of course we would get a climate change narrative

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We'll have to see what the messaging is inside the show. Most reasonable people agree that climate change is happening...as it's happened for billions of years. We are currently at the end of an ice age so it should come as no surprise that the earth can warm up. The normal argument is how much is man made or preventable and not a topic I want to go into on the Movie TV board.

I'm no expert by any means and just read a few things about this today. But there appears to be a correlation between melting ice caps and volcanic activity. Whether there's causation or not I don't know, but it would make for an interesting scenario for a doomsday movie/show. How they handle the reason for the climate change could turn either side off. I can probably deal with either scenario as long as it's not an obvious overarching political message.

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So what are we thinking it was that ended the world? I'm assuming an asteroid, since they knew about it for a while.

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I'm going to look for a good screen shot of the tablet when the President was reading it, but I did get the gist of it I think.

I paused on that scene and could see some stuff about atmospheric changes and the explosion of either a super volcano or a bunch of super volcanos.

Not sure if there was more to it than that. Looking forward to reading the reddit pages on this when I have some time. I love this show so far. Great mix of flashbacks to keep our favorite dead characters still involved. Love the mystery and I'm a sucker for end of days type scenarios. I just hope they don't move too fast to get out of the bunker. I enjoy seeing what "normal" life is for the survivors.

I did pick up on Sinatra saying if others found out where they were they would be in danger. That seems to set up some kind of conflict with outsiders for maybe future seasons if not the end of this season. I also think Xavier's wife will be alive out in the destroyed earth at some point.