re: Tennessee fans - when do you expect to get back to winning championships?

I hear you and those are some proud awards - damn. My real dad (died when I was very young) was a combat vet who was in 101st Airborne Div. in Vietnam (Infantry). When I think about the things he did it blows my mind.

Thanks. Even though dad died young, I was lucky that he wrote letters like crazy during Vietnam. Each one counted down the days til he could come home. A lot is just family stuff but other stuff told some truths I thought I'd never find the answer to.

He was also a tech lover and made tapes to send to Mom along with a mountain of letters. My mom still has them but I haven't listened to them yet. Part of it is because she insists on being there when I hear them - she wants to provide explanations - but I suck so bad at facing emotional shite that I haven't done it yet. I need to though Mom isn't getting any younger.

There's probably stuff like that with my dad too.

I just can't stand crying in front of other people and I know I'll be like a little bitch when I listen. I've never heard his voice and even that will shake my world. Facing my Dad's ghost is something I've been talking to friends a lot lately and every one of them has said the same thing: time to do it. I just have to find the courage.