re: I want to be in a coma

Lots of ways.

Took her for granted.

Thought I could do better.

Let paranoia get the best of me, got caught looking through her phone a bunch.

She found tinder on my phone. I never met anyone. I did it for feedback. To see who I could get.

I don't know who I was before.

Today feels like the first day I've known myself.

All of the wheels of corruption in me feel like they've stopped.

I'm left to survey the damage with a new disgust for things I once enjoyed.