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I believe it. I wouldn't consider myself suicidal by any means, but I find myself not content all the time. I'm more of an angry person. I have a beautiful wife, the smartest kid who everyone says is equally gorgeous. No debt outside of a house note and we bring in 6 figures as a family. You'd think that was enough, but I find myself always asking is this all life has to offer. It's pessimistic and unfair as hell to those who really struggle, but it's a constant battle. I'm extremely blessed, but still somehow manage to find a woe is me outlook on life. Which in turn causes me to further berate myself about why I'm so ungrateful. It's very easy to be your own worst enemy.

Minus the kid, that is me in a nutshell. Of course, I believe that is one of the curses of higher cognitive function and IQ. If you learn at an early age to question in a negative shade, it seems to follow you throughout life, for me at least.

I constantly ponder the purpose of life, thinking of myself as a mindless drone, systematically following society through predetermined norms that snuffs out any excitement or higher purpose. Sometimes it's hard for me to equate my life to little more than a marching ensemble of ants.

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Posted by NorthGwinnettTiger

Member since Jun 2006

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Posted on 1/24/14 at 9:47 pm to AUsteriskPride

Most of my "What Ifs" come from close friends who seem to have mastered life more than me when 5 years ago, you figured they were fricked because of their life choices. Some of my closest friends were hooked on oxys, failed out of AU and heading back home. Now, they're married with 3 kids, making $150k and the wife hangs around the house raising kids. Seriously motherfricker? I love you and all, but gimme a break...my wife was making 90k 5 years ago and decided to go back to school to be a kinder garden teacher. $50k less a year and $60k in debt to student loans.

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