re: jared lorenzen dying really bothering me.

Sounds like you’re battling weight and health issues. I can’t emphasize this enough- get your fricking shite together, dude. As soon as you see 5-10 lbs off you’ll have more motivation. Give yourself 30 fricking days of healthy eating and exercising minimum 3 days a week. If only 3 days, do it for 1.5 hours. Go 5 days for 30 min. Just do it. If you die because “it’s hard to lose weight” then you have no one to blame but yourself.

A good start is to remove added sugars from your diet and no alcohol for a month. You’ll see results quickly and it should help with motivation.

ETA for the couple downvotes, I’d be curious what you disagree with within my post or if you are just out of shape and don’t like hearing that you’re gonna die from your fatness