re: Anybody here ever seriously considered suicide?

Yes. I even looked up the least painful ways to die. I have gotten to where I'm disappointed that I opened my eyes for a new day.

The only thing that has kept me from it is what I'd do to my family and friends.

Thus the sabbatical I'll be taking soon.

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I've not, but I dealt with more than 20 panic attacks over 20 years. Stopping smoking helped, hydrating, magnesium, etc

As for depression, literally maybe two times in my life, I heard an old song that opened a flood gate, brought back times with old friends that I missed, or an old girlfriend (there was one who destroyed me back in the day), and fricking floored me for 5 minutes. Intense grief or whatever it was for like five minutes.
Then I was over it.

First I just wanted to chime in here and say what a wonderful bunch of folks there are on this board. Hopefully anyone dealing with depression or suicidal thoughts has been at least a little inspired.

I have never had suicidal thoughts per say, but I did wonder what my funeral would be like if I committed suicide, so maybe that counts. I learned at a young age that I had a knack for taking simple things and making them more complicated than they needed to be. I am sure I have gone though depression and anxiety but I was too chickenshit to ask for help, so the people who are looking for help and advice and being proactive about it are already tougher than me.

I think one of the things everyone has to do is know thyself. As much as you possibly can. We are all similar but also beautifully different and can respond differently to the same situations. We are each our own experiment, so if there are certain things that trigger anxiety, best to avoid them for now. You can overcome these obstacles later.

Second I would say that you must know that thoughts are things and you can control them. Just like you wouldn't allow your own fist to uncontrollably punch your face nor should you allow your thoughts to control you. Do not dwell. Do not wallow. It's OK to cry and grieve, but you just can live in it all the time. It is like living with sick people to wallow in that shite, it is contagious and you will keep giving it to yourself.

Third, you have to find what makes you happy. Sometimes that isn't easy. But you can start small and work your way up to the big stuff. Try to keep it as healthy as possible, but you have to live your life. Sometimes you have to have a cheeseburger and a beer or three.

Lastly, be helpful toward others, you would be surprised at how many people have it worse than you do. It's amazing how much it can help your problems by working on someone else's.

Love is a powerful thing and you can't love someone more that you love yourself. That's not vain, that is giving respect to all people, starting with yourself. We all need you to be your best so we can lean on you more.

Sorry so long and I hope it might be even a little helpful.