Not melting thread

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Meh, I'm disappointed, not mad/melting/etc.

This team will be break through and when they do the wins will start piling up.

If the majority of the complaints were true, these games would be close as the team would have already given up...

Also, a serious issue I had turned out to be a rash that will disappear with a special cream, so yea modern science.

Yay for rashes going away. I'll take the small victories.

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Was out for hubby's birthday. Great food and great alcohol! And paid for by his mom!

Slightly drunk....

Not melting. Just have that beat down feeling.

I think this team can beat lsu and mizzou. I just hope they don't go the way of aggie with their mental state.

All of this.

I'm' going to tell a personal story here about myself. It's pretty fricking gay lol.. anyway


I don't know how many of you follow my post history but I've mentioned before I used to have a problem with drugs. I really did. I'm 31, I started using when I was 22 years old, and while I was a functioning addict for a few years, by the end I had a 500-1000 dollar a week habit. I paid my bills, but that's about it. Every last thing else went to drugs.

Anyway this went on for a few years and I got popped for a busted tail light in LR and I had like a dime bag of dope in the car that I didn't know about and the guy searched my car. I was pissed but that guy saved my life


I knew then I was done. It just made sense. I remember thinking in the cop car, okay this chapter of your life is over, it happened, it's time to do something else. I remember being actaully happy when I was in jail.. for all of 24 hours lol, beucase I knew I was done.


Anyway, I pleaded into drug court. I have a clean record and while probation, which is what they were going to give me, was going to be easy, 1. i knew i had a problem and i knew probation was too lax for me to fix it and 2. I wanted to keep my clean record.


Drug court, is pure. fricking.hell. Keep in mind I run a business, having to go to class 3 times a week in the middle of the fricking day, random drug tests in the middle of the fricking day, meeting with your PO every other week, having to see outside counseling, going to actual drug court every 2 weeks, and having to go to 3 NA meetings a week for about a year. I came in drug court with 9 other people that started the same month of me, 3 of us graduated. The rest are in jail, one is I don't know where the hell he just took off and never came back lol.


On top of all that I had to pay a $3k fine before I could get out of drug court, on top of the $60 a month for drug court fees whatever the frick, not counting I had to clean up all the business related shite I moved around while doing my drug thing. There were a few times I just wanted to quit but I would not let me. It was hard fricking work.


And if you so much as sniff a wiff of alcohol you have to start the entire program over. I saw a dude who started with me have to start the entire program over because he was 30 mins late for a drug test. and he passed.


I remember thinking, looking at the people who just had probation / parole, man this is fricked up. I mean I know I had to do some work but I was working so damn hard and i had nothing to show for it. My car broke down like half way through and I was taking the ab and shite I was making good money, really good month and I had nothing becuase all of it was going to drug court. I couldn't even afford insurance, yet made too much to qualify for medicare (thanks obama lol)


I remember thinking why all the people in parole had it easier than we had it and this shite would never end. I'm going to be a loser forever. I had put on weight and I didn't have time to go to the gym, I didn't even have a car to get to the grocery store with. Sad shite.



I remember when I graduated drug court, probably the happiest day of my life. Not one failed drug test, not a late meeting, nothing. and as soon as I had the time to actually work my job like I wanted to, it's like I was playing life with a cheat code. My income literally quadrupled, I dropped 50 pounds in 7 months, and I went from living with a roommate to buying a loft in 2 years, in cash. That year and a half in drug court was the best thing that ever happened to me, I just couldn't see it while I was going through it. and still clean btw 6 years in july.



I say all that to say, this is how I see the arkansas team. It looks so hard. But we are building real mental toughness. Allen will be a senior next year. This team is going to put it together and when they all put it together they are going ot skull frick some people.


It just sucks going through it

Great story. Hopefully they get over the hump much the same as you.

Man, i don't know what that A&M game did to me but i'm afraid there is some permanent damage. There's some serious scar tissue from that loss that has prevented any further melt this season.

I usually go through the whole gamut of rage to disappointment to frustration to embarrassment in a season like this. But, after re-committing emotionally during that A&M game, only to have my guts stomped out, something happened to me that i cannot figure out.

I'm nowhere close to melting. We're getting better. We will break through soon. It'll happen when it happens. We're so far from being a big time contender that losses are unfortunately easy to swallow these days. I guess i see them as a part of a bigger process that our program is undergoing at the moment. Sucks for us, but we just so happen to play in the toughest football division in the history of college football and rebuilding progress won't show up in the W/L column until it's actually here and not before. This is exasperated by the fact that the 2 perennial doormat Mississippi schools are having historical, magical seasons (well, they were going into last wkend).

So, no, i'm not melting. I'm good. I hate BA. I hate our OC but i have faith that we'll make the changes we need. In the meantime i'm looking forward to heading to the woods for the remainder of the football season. I'll be watching and cheering from the comfort of my favorite chair at my hunting club which as i get older sounds more and more enticing.

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I try to limit my Melts to things that I have some control over.