Good story written by John Henson(Kicker) about missing the FG in the aTm game

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Now, when I missed that field goal against the Aggies, I forgot all of that. I blamed myself. I felt that it was totally my fault we lost that SEC contest.

I could not look my teammates in the eyes. I gave my all, but the ball didn’t go through the up rights.

I did not sleep that night or the next. The game was a Saturday, and I didn’t eat until dinner on Monday. I care for my teammates, my coaches, and my own personal effort. If I am being completely honest, I was thoroughly disappointed in myself. I think it would be a red flag if I just didn’t care.

These were all internal pressures I was putting on myself, but they increased under the massive microscope of college football.

From the moment I walked off the field, while we were still winning, cursing threats came from behind me. Threats on social media were probably the most difficult. I got looks of disgust in class, people actually did whisper and point, like a cheesy movie with soft depressing music playing in the background. Things like that happened the week after. Regardless, it is a really hard thing to deal with when I’m told to keep my head low for a while in Fayetteville, because they are disappointed with my performance. Or people tell me I am a waste of a scholarship or a sports analyst feels inclined to let me know I am a poor excuse for Arkansas’ kick game.

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